Content warning: graphic description of genitalia
I used to hate penises, especially my own. I was the stereotypical “I’m so straight I even hate my own penis” meme. I fantasised about getting bottom surgery before I ever thought about being trans.
I was pretty nervous when I started T4T because of my discomfort around penises. But I quickly realised that feminine penises (after a while of HRT) are actually completely different to masculine penises. They are less veiny. The extra subcutaneous fat gives them a slight softness even when hard. Girlcum tastes sweet and lightly tangy. The heady smell is closer to that of a vagina. When they are soft they look cute, and it’s not considered insulting for me to call them such. And let’s face it, girls with penises just look amazing from the front.
After I’d been on HRT for a little while, eventually I realised that my own penis had become feminine too. And when this happened, my bottom dysphoria disappeared. I kinda love being a girl with a penis, I think I’m hot AF. (I’m still considering bottom surgery, but for kink reasons not dysphoria reasons)
Growing comfortable with my own penis has also made me less scared of masc penis. I’m still not a massive fan, but if it’s the right person then I’m comfortable playing with it a bit.
